A Weekend in Palm Springs

What follows is a recap I wrote on my high school Listserv of a mini reunion some of us had in Palm Springs.  Around 30 of us came from various parts of the country - New York City, Florida, upstate NY, northern California - and it was truly glorious.

It started for the three of us on Thursday, April 26th.  Meri Henriques, Ed Sobel and I (or, the three GreatNeckteers as we like to call ourselves) set out from the Bay Area by car around 9:00 AM.  We had a stockpile of supplies to get us through the long voyage - sandwiches, bottled water, snacks and music on both my iPad and iPhone.  The time passed quickly - at least virtually quickly as we caught each other up on the various happenings in our lives - but not so quickly by the clock.  It was 5:30 by the time we wearily pulled up to David and Glenn's humble abode (NOT).  They had glasses of wine at the ready which I for one eagerly imbibed.  We spent a lovely evening with them, getting to know Glenn and Janice (the ExecutiveDirector of Sunnylands, the Walter Annenberg estate) and reconnecting with David, exchanging childhood horror stories and memories and lots of laughter.  We then repaired to our own humble abode (also NOT - a wonderful French Provincial 3 BR 3 ½ BA house complete with pool and jacuzzi that a friend of David's was letting us use) and got a good night's sleep.

Friday was spent lounging out by the pool and soaking in the wonderful rays of Palm Springs sunshine.  I'd been apprehensive about how the heat would affect me, but David proved to be right in that the dry heat was merely soothing and not at all harmful.

The Mini started officially with a cocktail party at David and Glenn's on Friday evening.  The most amazing thing is that we all came together as old friends - even with people we had not only not known in high school, but of whose existence we had not even been aware.   There is something about that bond of having grown up in the same town, gone to the same high school, known the same people.  We all spoke (speak) the same language, get each other's jokes, can almost finish each other's sentences.  There was very little reminiscing and a whole lot of just getting to know each other as adults and even more of just really liking each other.  As Jill Brookman said in a recent post, it was more like a family get together.  Only without the baggage.  David and Glenn set the tone by being not just gracious and generous hosts, but also by being relaxed and welcoming.  You would never have known that over 30 virtual strangers had just descended on them and invaded their amazing home.  It was with a certain reluctance that we left to go to Jake's Bistro for dinner.

There were multiple tables of 4 or 6 waiting for us at the restaurant.  My party got there late (as we did for every event - you'd think the fact that we were driving and not walking would have had the opposite result - oh well) so I don't know how people figured out who was sitting where, but it all worked out perfectly.  It was as if we had the restaurant to ourselves - there was a lot of table hopping and visiting.  And martini sampling - thanks again, Mark, it was a great kick off for me.  i have no idea whether we were a bother to the other patrons - as far as we were concerned, it was a private party just for us.

Saturday morning we all met at the Palm Springs Art Museum, in the Kaplan/Ostergaard Gallery no less.  Vinny was our docent and he had us laughing and asking questions and feeling very much a part of the gallery.  We had to cut our visit a bit short as we had to get to our next meal by a certain time - some of us went back to the museum on Sunday for a more in depth visit.  I would love to go back sometime myself - it's a jewel of a museum.  My major regret was not having gotten a photo of JOAN (a very realistic nude statue), but Rhoda graciously took a photo for me when she went back on Sunday afternoon and emailed it to me on time for the posting of my photos.  I bet some of you thought she was real!  We certainly did - it was hard not to avert our eyes out of embarrassment.  The artist's name is John deAndrea if any of you want to learn more about him and his body of work (pun intended).

Lunch was at Spencer's at the Racquet Club.  This time we did have our own room.  Again, people seemed to figure out where to sit and with whom.  I know that David and Glenn managed to sit with different classmates at every meal - they were the perfect hosts in every sense of the word.  After lunch we set off for Sunnylands.

Caren Knecht Blank was kind enough to post a Vanity Fair article on Sunnylands, so we all knew a bit about its background.  Unfortunately, we were not able to tour the house - there was a private elite group having a retreat there that weekend - but Janice arranged for us to see a film and then a slide show in the theatre before she took us on a tour of the grounds.  I took lots of photos of the marvelous Palo Verdes trees with their radiant umbrellas of sparkling yellow leaves and green trunks and I can send them to anyone who is interested.  It was magical.  We were also visited by a visiting tribe of hummingbirds, but try as I might, I was not able to get any photos of them.  Maybe someone else did and can post them.  We were also visited by a flock of Monarch butterflies, but I missed that too because I was so entranced by the hummingbirds.

We three repaired back to our house for more relaxing pool time before getting ready for dinner at LuLu's Bistro.  We didn't have a private room there, but again, it seemed like we did.  We were upstairs and had a whole area to ourselves.

Sunday was our last official event, and the weekend ended like it had begun - at David and Glenn's house, this time for brunch.  Again, it was on the back patio and there was a wonderful spread of bagels and lox (of course - that was de rigeur!), muffins, quiches, fruit, juices, etc.  We all stayed a long time, visiting again with each other, making sure to connect with any classmates we might have missed up until then.  Poor David and Glenn - they must have feared we would never leave.  We certainly didn't want to!

It was a perfect weekend mini, from start to finish.  I haven't talked about David and Glenn's amazing house and art collection - but you can see that for yourselves in the photos we all have been posting.  As we continue to have more of these minis around the country, we all become more and more comfortable with each other, and by the time we have the Big One, it really will be like a family get together.  But a family that really likes each other.  New friendships are being formed not only in the U.S., but abroad too - in Spain, and Tahiti (yes, that's you, Peter) and who knows where else - we still have a little over 100 of our classmates to find.  And at the rate that Ram is going, we will have found all of them in plenty of time for the 50th.

I am not the first to say this, and I will not be the last, but I encourage EVERYONE to attend at least one mini if you possibly can.  Abby Caine Rosenthal wants to organize one in Georgia; Meri Henriques, Howie Perlin and I are going to be organizing one in the Bay Area at Howie's house (NOT on a Jewish holiday weekend!); I'm sure there will be more in Southern California, Florida and NY.  I hope I have conveyed just a little bit of how wonderful this particular one was.  Hopefully more classmates who attended will be posting their photos.

And that is the way it was.

And The Journey Continues

This is the longest I've gone without blogging.  I'm not sure why.  Sometimes I'm waiting for news, i.e. the results of an MRI.  Sometimes I'm just not in the mood, or feeling that great and I want to wait for a better and happier day.  Sometimes I'm just busy.  I think it was a combination of all of those.  I do have lots of news - some good, some not so good.

The not so good first - I lost the bookkeeping job.  It just wasn't a good fit.  They wanted me to go to their office 35 miles south of here once a week at 8:15 AM and I did not want to do that.  They tried to accommodate me by giving me an extra monitor and letting me do the work remotely from home, but it resulted in it taking me longer to accomplish the tasks since it was fairly complex and thus hard to explain over the phone.  So that leaves me just with the techno tutoring as a source of income.

The other not so good news regards having stopped the Ampyra.  Stopping had a very negative effect on me.  My energy level plummeted and my right leg and foot became so weak that I could barely lift my foot and was constantly dragging my leg and stumbling.  I started declining social invitations right and left and spending a lot of time on my couch.  Finally, about a week ago, I emailed my MS doctor out of desperation and asked for his opinion regarding starting the pill again.  I wanted to make sure that I wasn't risking making everything even worse.  I should explain that Ampyra is not a disease modifying drug - it does not change the course of the disease.  It just is supposed to help with the symptoms, energy and walking ability.  It is a time release tablet that you take every 12 hours.  My doctor agreed I should try it again, but suggested I keep a detailed daily log of how I do.  So, I started it on Friday, May 11th.  Luckily I have a 2 month supply left from before.  I almost immediately saw an improvement - I even had some moments where I didn't need to use my cane.  But then I went back to exercise class on Tuesday (I hadn't been for a few months because of how I'd been feeling) and have been having problems with my leg again.  Not as bad as before however.  I think I'm going to have to do exercises on my own at home.  In any case, I'm remaining positive and hopeful.  I think this pill is like some antibiotics - you have to take rest periods.  In the meantime, I'm still waiting for the disease modifying drug Biogen BG-12 to be approved by the FDA.  They're saying it's the most exciting drug they've ever seen for MS.

I'm loving my Techno Tutoring job.  I have about 10 regular private clients at the Residence in addition to my 4 monthly Question and Answer sessions and basic computer classes where I'm paid by the Residence.  My clients are all becoming like family to me.  One of them, a former doctor, is always emailing me articles on developments in MS.  Their ages range from mid 80s to 92.  I also have about 5 regular clients outside the Residence. I'm getting ready to look for another similar type facility in this area.  And I've just added another income stream - remote computer teaching and troubleshooting.  One of my high school classmates lives in L.A. and I've been trying to help him via email.  I decided one day to use with him the remote software I'd been using in the bookkeeping job that allows me to see his desktop and move his cursor.  It worked perfectly!  He is now a regular client.  I will soon be sending out a new flyer announcing this new capability and asking for referrals anywhere in the country - or the world, for that matter.  Thank God for the internet!  I'm offering this to my regular clients, too, for whenever they have a specific problem as opposed to needing to learn how to do something.  I will charge them just for the amount of time we spend on the phone.

One of my high school classmates lives in Palm Springs, CA and he and I put together a wonderful mini reunion there the last weekend in April.  I will post a separate blog I wrote for our classmates about that along with a link to the photos I took.  He and his partner collect glass works of art - their pieces are on loan to museums all over the world.  They have 200 pieces in their home and their own wing in the Palm Springs museum.  I was a little apprehensive as to how I would do in the heat, but even though it got to 105 degrees, I did fine.  My friend had told me that dry heat is different and luckily he was right.  Meanwhile we are all working in earnest on planning our big 50th reunion next June.  I'm in charge of keeping a master database and welcoming in all the "new" classmates as we find them.  I remember two years ago when my school friend Lyn Lederman found me on Facebook - little did we know what that would lead to.  Since then we've found over 250 of our classmates and I've become very close friends with a lot of them.  Some of them I didn't even know in Great Neck.  It's been wonderful.

Another piece of good news - I had a new set of MRIs done last month and there is no new activity, no new lesions.  That is very good news indeed.  I will be seeing my doctor on June 5th.  The next day I leave for Seattle.  My two grandsons, Cameron and Devon, will be graduating - one from high school and the other from middle school.  I'm really looking forward to spending some time with my family up there.

And speaking of family, my sister Trish and her boyfriend Stan each reached a milestone this year - Trish turned 70 (in August) and Stan turned 80.  They had a joint milestone birthday party and I was thrilled to see photos of our parents going back to their wedding day and of us as youngsters.  I hadn't seen those photos in a very long time.

Carla and I have decided not to go to France this Fall.  She because of financial considerations and myself because of finances and my health.  Unless things really improve, I just do not see how I could do a trip like that.  I'm very disappointed, but the older I get, the more I realize you just cannot do everything.  I'm hoping maybe I could go the following year - maybe with Brenda (hey Brenda, come to France with me!).

That pretty much sums up what I have been doing the past 4 months.  I'm trying to figure out the best way to manage my health, I'm building up a new business, I'm working on my high school reunion.  The nutrition program that I started in December has turned out to be very beneficial as well.  I feel much stronger and I can tell that my body is more toned and functions better.  Trish and Stan have decided to try it too, not for nutrition alone like I am doing, but also for weight loss, and after just a month they have each lost over 6 lbs and several inches.

I will try to post more regularly.  One of the benefits of a blog, in addition to being able to update friends and loved ones around the world, is to then hear their news.  I look forward to hearing from a lot of you.  In the meantime, thanks for caring and always being there for me.  It's been quite a journey and it's not over yet!

It's A Wonderful Life

What a month I have had.  I'll start with a health update.  I stopped the Ampyra on December 13.  Unfortunately, I did not have the results I had hoped for.  Not only has my walking NOT returned to how it was before I started taking the pill, it immediately worsened.  I've had to use my cane daily ever since and there were some days when I could barely move.  I even slept on the couch a few nights so I could be closer to the bathroom.  However, lately I have had some good days, and that encourages me.  I'm doing a three pronged attack on this disease: 1) rest - I'm trying very hard to get to bed by 10:30 PM (failing miserably tonight however) 2) nutrition - I'm religiously sticking to the Isagenix regime of one shake a day plus 1 oz of minerals in the morning - I can feel the difference in my energy level plus my body is feeling more toned and in balance and 3) exercise, which I will get to below.  I have an appointment with the MS doctor on Wednesday, but I am feeling very optimistic that I will once again be able to put the cane away.

As I've written before, I joined the local YMCA 3 years ago and had been using their weight machines.  Well, I've barely been there because of the above reasons.  Then in December a friend who also has MS told me about an adaptive physical education at the local Senior Center starting on January 3rd.  I went and immediately signed up and have put my membership at the Y on hold for 5 months.  The class takes place twice a week and consists of an hour of stretching, weights, using the band, isometrics, leg exercises, lunges, sitting and standing with weights etc.  It is very similar to the class I used to take at the local college, except without the ball.  There are about 10 of us in this particular class (some in wheelchairs) and 4 instructors, so there is a lot of individual attention.  I like having the discipline of a class.  The pace is perfect for me - some of the exercises are particularly difficult because I can't move my right leg or lift that foot, but I try and it's getting easier.  The best part however is that after the hour, one of the instructors then spends 15 minutes with me doing exercises and using machines specifically for MS and that pesky right leg.

Now on to my two new businesses.  The professional bookkeeper I used to work with at my job at the nonprofit in Milpitas has hired me to help her through the tax season, at 20-25 hours a week.  I can do it mostly from home remotely.  I'll mainly be doing data entry so they can concentrate on getting their clients ready for filing their tax returns.  This is again, like the adaptive exercise class, perfect for me, because it means I'll be earning enough to cover my monthly expenses while I build up the techno tutoring business.

Which brings me to that, which I consider to be my main business.  When I first arrived at the Senior Center for the first class, I started explaining to them that I was starting this computer consulting business and so might have to miss some classes if I have a client.  One of the instructors overheard what I was saying and excitedly exclaimed that she had just received an email from a local assisted living residence that was looking for just that.  I had my interview on Monday and have been hired to come twice a month, starting January 23, to answer residents' questions which they will have prepared ahead of time.  Of course, the goal is to have some of the residents hire me personally.  I've given the activities director some of my flyers to post by each of the elevators to promote it.  She and I clicked right away.  It turns out one of her best friends is my next door neighbor - I was just there for a holiday party.

I've also received lots of leads of other assisted living and retirement communities for me to contact from all of you, my wonderful friends, to whom I had emailed my most recent promotional flyer.  I've enclosed the two flyers here on the side.  You have also emailed my flyers to your friends, as I requested, and I have heard from some of them.  My favorite was a referral from Evelyn Perl. When I had my first appointment with her, I noticed that there were lots of business files around her desk and asked her what she did.  She looked me straight in the eyes and answered "I kill people."  It turns out she writes, directs and produces murder mystery plays!  She also had spent many years on the stage in various musicals and has several walls lined with photos from the various productions.  This is one of the aspects of this business that I love - meeting all these new and interesting people.

However, unfortunately I've had to cancel my planned trip to my friend Marvin's 90th birthday party in Puerto Vallarta.  It's in March and I am going to be super busy through tax day, April 15th.  I hated having to cancel, but I had no choice.  Hopefully I will make it to his 95th!

So this year is turning out to be pretty good.  For the next 3 months my life will pretty much consist of techno tutoring, bookkeeping, exercise and getting my legs back.  It's amazing how much has happened since that fateful time in 2008.  That seems so long ago.  My future seemed so uncertain, I was filled with so many fears.  Now I don't even worry about the future.  I know it will work out - it always has.

Health Update

As most of you know, I started taking a pill called Ampyra in May 2010.  It's not what they call a disease modifier - in other words, it does not stop or even slow the progression of the disease.  It just helps with certain symptoms.  It's a time release pill and only stays in your system about 12 hours.  The dosage is twice daily.  It immediately helped me with my energy.  I'd been experiencing huge bouts of fatigue, collapsing onto my couch upon returning from work and not moving for the rest of the night.  The day I took my first pill, I scrubbed my apartment from top to bottom.  My wonderful friends Ulla and Joachim arrived the next day from Vancouver for a visit and I was totally energized the entire visit.  The pill was also supposed to help improve my walking.  Not only did it not do that, it seemed to make it worse.  Since taking this pill, I can only walk short distances before I start having trouble lifting my right foot and I start to shuffle.  It's been getting worse and worse, but I continued to take the pill because it was helping me so much with my energy.  However, I started to notice a few months ago that it wasn't helping me with that anymore either.  I googled the pill a few months ago and noticed that a lot of people were experiencing deterioration in their walking like I was.

I saw my MS doctor on Tuesday and he immediately agreed that I should stop the pill.  It seems he's been hearing this from other patients as well.  I'm now taking the pill just once a day for a week and then I will stop it altogether.  My leg still becomes heavy if I walk too far, but my legs are remaining strong for almost 22-23 hours whereas before they would weaken right before I was due to take the second pill, or after 12 hours.  So this is already an improvement.

Which leaves the fatigue.  I have started a nutrition program called Isagenix.  My friend Ed has been on it for 4 years and it has done amazing things for his health.  Before starting it, he had an ulcer, high cholesterol and was pre diabetic.  Within months all of that was gone.   He also lost 24 pounds within 3 months.  He had told me about this program a year ago, but I wasn't interested because I don't need to or want to lose weight and I kept thinking of it as a weight loss program even though he told me it also just a general wellness program.  However, two things happened recently.  First, my hair has been falling out and thinning for several months.  My dermatologist told me it was due to my not eating enough protein.  The second thing that happened is that my friend Ge sent me a video of an interview with a doctor who had cured her MS symptoms (not the disease, just the symptoms) purely through changing her diet to a paleolithic diet.  That means gluten free, lots of fruits and vegetables, no processed foods, only grass fed meat, etc.  She had been diagnosed with MS in 2000 and within 3 years was in a wheelchair and unable to even sit at the dinner table.  She had taken the injectable drugs right after her diagnosis, but that did not slow the progression.  The medical community had nothing else to offer her.  So she started doing her own research which led her to the connection between diet and the brain.  She is now hiking and riding bicycles, etc.  Her name is Dr. Terry Wahls and she has a website at www.terrywahls.com if you're interested in reading about her.

Well, this obviously got my attention.  I don't think I could follow a diet like she does - I love my food too much.  But I could do something like Isagenix.  Instead of the weight loss program, I'm on the Wellness program.  It's been less than a week and I'm already feeling changes in my body.  I can't put my finger on it, but I feel more in balance, more toned, and I definitely have more energy.  I'm finally getting things done that I'd been putting off for months for lack of energy.  The nutrition program consists of drinking 1 oz of a liquid that is packed with minerals and nutrients every morning, and making a shake from a powder once a day, usually at lunch time.  I have my normal breakfast and dinner.  I'm also finding that I'm eating smaller meals and more often during the day, which I've always heard is a healthier way to eat.

I am very hopeful and optimistic about this.  I know there are no guarantees.  But I have always preferred managing my health through alternative avenues rather than drugs.  The injectable drug they've been wanting me to take all these years is called Copaxone.  Well, I just read an article where they're finding that this drug puts a spot on your liver.  Already my hair is not falling out as much.  Putting more vitamins and nutrients and minerals into my body certainly can't hurt - my hope is that it will also improve my balance and mobility and energy.  I will keep you posted on this here.

By the way, the doctor thought I looked great.  He did a series of tests on me and said everything looked great too (reflexes, eye movement, strength, etc.).

The new drug I wrote about previously - Biogen B-12 - which they hoped would be approved by the FDA and available by the end of this year will actually not be available until next November.  Maybe by then I won't need it!

Happy Holidays and New Year, everyone.

New Life Part Two

It's been a long time since my last post.  A lot of what I'd been planning to write about in my next post is old news now.  This is the perfect time though because I am literally reinventing my life again and starting anew.  Is it really Part Two?  or Three?  Six?  I've lost count.

Thursday was my last day of work at  Child Advocates in Milpitas. It was bittersweet in that I loved working there, both because of the work and because of the people (and the steady paycheck wasn't too bad either), but the commute was getting harder and harder for me as my fatigue level was increasing.  I've spent the last 3 months training my replacement so I leave confident that they are in good hands.  I came in to work on Thursday to gifts and cards, a goodbye lunch in a nice restaurant, and tearful hugs and promises to keep in touch.

The good news is that I've already started my new business of techno tutoring.  I have two regular clients, a  new one that I'm seeing for the first time on Tuesday, and another couple of clients that have booked me for the end of November and who will also be ongoing clients.  This is all without having done any marketing or promotion yet.  They're mostly referrals from friends, but the one next week is from a neighborhood website where I'd posted my profile.  I also have several leads on the bookkeeping business.  I am feeling very confident that I will be able to support myself with these two businesses and at the same time be able to work around my sporadic relapses and bouts of fatigue.  AND be able to travel, which had become a problem at Child Advocates - I needed to be there at certain times to do payroll and end of the month financial statements.  More about upcoming travel later.

While still talking about my new business, I've had another wonderful thing happen as a result of my iPhone having been stolen last April.  I think I've already written about all the freebies the manager of the Palo Alto Apple store has given me to make up for the bad experience I had when I went to purchase a replacement phone.  He had also talked me into installing the new operating system Lion onto my used Macbook, even though I usually like to wait until all the bugs in a new operating system have been fixed.  He gave me Lion for free, but I immediately started having problems - my mail program kept crashing, etc.  After several visits to the store to have them try and fix it, he finally emailed me and said to bring in my 2009 used Macbook so that he could upgrade it.  Well, what he did was swap it for a brand new Macbook PRO with double the storage, double the memory and double the speed along with updated software.  For free!  I was astounded.  Especially once I realized how important this was for my business.  Apple has discontinued the Macbook.  None of my clients have the Macbook, they all have either the Macbook Pro or the desktop iMac, and I would not have been able be the expert that I am advertising myself as.  It would have cost me around $1500 to get one new so I could keep up with my clients.  Everything is working out perfectly.

Now about future travel.  In March my good friend Marv Rubinstein will be celebrating his 90th birthday.  He is legendary for his exotic birthday parties (a Circle Line boat circling the island of Manhattan with dinner and dancing, dinner in Paris and brunch in Versailles, the Awahnee hotel in Yosemite to mention a few - I attended the first two) and this one will be in Puerto Vallarta.  I had promised Marv I wouldn't miss another one, and I'm not.  I'm going to this one, along with Brenda, and we will be staying with JoAnne Rockower, whom I have been promising to visit since she moved to Puerto Vallarta.

Then in April one of my high school classmates who lives in Palm Springs is putting together a fantastic weekend for around 35 of us from Great Neck - cocktail party at his house, private docent led tours of the Palm Springs museum and Imago Gallery, meals in local restaurants, private tour of Sunnylands (the Annenberg Estate), brunch at his house.  That weekend is definitely going to be a highlight of my new life.

And to cap it all off, Carla and I are finally going to France - to visit my cousin Martine, my friend Rick, and just to satisfy our deep seeded love of all things French.  We haven't fixed a date yet - hopefully next Spring.

I'll end with an update on my health.  The new oral drug, Biogen BG-12, has finished its third clinical trial with outstanding results.  I am definitely going to take it once it's available.  It's the first disease modifying drug I've been willing to take.  I am still taking the oral drug Ampyra, which is not a disease modifier but does help with symptoms like fatigue and walking.  It no longer helps with my walking and doesn't help as much with my fatigue, but I'm still taking it.  I have recently purchased Trekking Poles which are now being used for stability and balance issues as well as for hiking.  I've gone out walking with them once so far (see photo at left) with great success.  They collapse like my cane does so I will be traveling with them.

So I think you've got the picture of my new life - new businesses, new drugs, new computer, new poles, new travel - not too bad for an old lady of 66!

Good News and More Good News

Regarding the car, the news couldn't be any better.  Not only will the body shop (Magnussen Carwest for those in the area - they're wonderful) be able to fix my car, they are also removing the expired yellow commuter lane stickers, fixing the remaining damage from the raw eggs that had been thrown at her in February, and, in addition to replacing the 3 damaged tires and rims with new ones, they're throwing in a 4th tire and rim for free.  I'm essentially going to end up with a brand new car.  And the icing on the cake is that the insurance company is waiving the $500 deductible.  The repair estimate is $9,000, which says a lot about how much a Prius retains its value - the year is 2006.  I should have her back by the end of the month.  In the meantime, I'm tooling around town in a fire engine red Toyota Corolla Matrix Hatchback - not bad.

The next bit of good news concerns the MRIs I had done last month.  The scan of the brain showed no change from last year.  The scan of the spine also showed no new lesions, although some of them MIGHT be a slight bit larger and others MIGHT be a slight bit smaller.  It was hard to tell.  What was obvious though is that there is a lot of activity along the spinal cord.  My doctor said that based on all that activity (in other words, a lot of lesions), they feel strongly that I should be on some kind of drug.  Now here's the really good news.  They will be coming out with a new disease modifying drug (that means it slows the progression) hopefully by the end of the year and it's an oral drug, not an injectable.  And the best part is that it has a higher success rate (over 50% compared to just 33%), fewer side effects and a higher safety record.  For the first time, I am open to taking one of these drugs.  It's called Biogen B-12 if anyone wants to read up on it.

Now for the really exciting part - my new business card is ready!  I've enclosed an image of it at the top. It is at the printer's as we speak and I should have it next week.  I am already starting to book appointments.  The next step is to design a business card for my bookkeeping business (this one will be much simpler).  Once I get that one, I will start calling on small businesses and medical offices in the area.  And then Ed, my graphic artist friend, will design me a brochure.  My job with the non-profit in Milpitas ends as of October 31, so it is incumbent on me to get these new businesses going promptly!  I welcome any and all referrals.

The mini reunions and discovery of lost high school classmates continue to occur at a faster and faster pace.  I am in charge of creating and maintaining a database - one general one with everyone's information and another one just for the classmates who have still not been found.  It's pretty time consuming but fun and exciting too.  We just heard from someone I'd been extremely friendly with and fond of in HS and I am so happy to be back in touch with him.

Life continues to be fun.  This weekend 6 of the women from the cancer class Carla and I took at the YMCA back in 2008 are spending the weekend at the country home of one of us up in Sonoma, the wine country.  We're bringing sleeping bags and pillows and everyone is taking care of one meal.  Carla and I are handling a breakfast and a lunch, we're all bringing wine plus I'm bringing vodka and my apple and pomegranate martini mixers, as well as my iPod and iPod speakers.  We're calling it a retreat, but I'm not sure that's the right word for it - I do know there will be lots of laughter and good times.

And finally, I think summer is finally here.  The temperature has been averaging in the high 50s to low 60s, but we finally were at mid 80s yesterday.  I haven't even unpacked my chaise lounge on my deck yet - usually I'm out there every day after work, but it's been too cold.  I was even beginning to regret having put away my heaters and brought out my fans.  Hopefully it will stay nice until the Fall.

That's it, folks!

Ongoing Saga of the Trials and Tribulations of LSD

Well, as you can see, my poor Prius has once again been violated - this time without me being at the wheel or even in the car.  She was innocently parked on the street right in front of the carriage house when suddenly there was this loud noise followed by a car alarm.  Carla and I went running out of the house (well, Carla did, I was kind of limping along, being still in my pajamas and socks) and sure enough, this young woman had rammed right into the left rear of my car, pushing her up on the curb and causing the tire and axle to be all twisted.  Her car continued along the street and then careened into the curb where her tire immediately exploded.

To cut a long and painful story short, she was led away in handcuffs (drugs-involved DUI) and my car was towed away to a tow yard.  Today I spoke to the auto body shop that had done such a miraculous job 3 years ago after the stop sign/squad car incident and they have her now where they will inspect her and then let me know whether she is salvageable.  Oy.  Boy do I love that car.  I am getting a rental from Hertz tomorrow (covered by my insurance) but what will I do without my GPS?  My insurance company, CSAA, has been great, as always.  This is my 3rd claim now - the accident with the stop sign (over $13,000 to repair), the stolen iPhone (over $800), and now this.  The miracle is that my rates have never gone up, since none of these were my fault.  I won't even have to pay the deductible this time since the car was parked in front of my house.

I will post the finale to this sad story once I find out whether the car can be fixed or whether I need to purchase a new one.

Now on to the good news.  I finally went to New York and had a WONDERFUL time.  I was lucky with the weather - except for the first day, which was hot and humid and in the 90s, the weather was cool and overcast, and even rained with thunderstorms a couple of days.  My friend Ed picked me up at the airport and we immediately drove to Great Neck, my hometown.  I not only got to see my old house, I was also given a tour by the current owner.  The house was built in 1856 and is an historical landmark. You can tell she respected and revered its origins.  She explained the changes she'd made (all of which I approved) and I described how it had been in my day.  She'd purchased it in 1996 and we had sold it in 1963.  Trish had visited it at some point, I think in the 1980s, and had also been given a tour by the owners at that time, so we knew there had been several owners since the Druces.

I think the most surprising tidbit about my stay on Long Island is that you CANNOT find a good place to have an espresso or caffe latte, except for the occasional Starbucks.  Note that word OCCASIONAL. Every time I would ask for a cappucino, they would nod their head up and down giddily, saying yes yes we have capuccinos, and then point me towards this machine that had the word CAPPUCINO written on it, and which dispensed this gooey sugary concoction that reminded me of coffee you get in the vending machines in train stations.  Yuck.  It wasn't until I was in Manhattan that I was back in civilization with coffee houses every few feet like here in the Bay Area.

I got to see all my wonderful NY friends.  I stayed 3 nights with Cynthia who lives in what I think is considered the West Village.  We were occupied every single second I was with her - dinner in local Italian restaurant, Cooper Hewitt museum for a wonderful exhibit of Van Cleef & Arpels jewelry (the museum itself was a jewel, being the former residence of Andrew Carnegie), a dinner a la Sex In The City with the original foursome (Cynthia, Joan, Karin and myself for those in the know) in a Spanish restaurant where we dined Tom Jones style on gambas al ajllo and lobster washed down with martinis, followed the next day by a wonderful lunch with Marv and Chie where we were also joined by Joan's husband Richard.  That evening Cynthia and I went to a local production of music by Cy Coleman which was delightful.  In between all these activities were nonstop talking and sharing sessions in which we tried to catch up on the last 10+ years.  I also managed to squeeze in some hours of techno-tutoring, teaching her how to use iTunes and giving her music I'd brought on my portable hard drive.

By Friday I was exhausted albeit exhilarated and was happy to accompany Karin home to her peaceful oasis in Bayonne, New Jersey where I spent the next 3 lovely and restful days.  Not to say there wasn't excitement.  We had two glorious dinners sitting outside overlooking the water.  We also spent lots of time catching each other up on the years since my last visit.  Karin, Cynthia and I go way back, to the years I lived in Paris.  We have a lot of shared memories, adventures and experiences.  It was wonderful to be with them both, especially unencumbered by a spouse!  My only regret is that I did not get to spend much time with Joan.  I hope to rectify that on my next visit.

By Monday morning I was refreshed and ready to once more take on New York City.  Again, my wonderful and generous friend Ed came and picked me up in New Jersey.  Otherwise I do not know how I would have managed all the moving around that I did.   We went back to Long Island, this time to Lynbrook where I had spent my first 10 years before moving to Great Neck, for the first of many mini reunions of my 1963 high school graduating class.  There were about 25 of us, each and every one looking terrific and much younger than our years, and we all had an amazingly great time.  I don't quite know how to put into words what is happening with our class.  It turns out a lot of us had either troubled childhoods or insecurities in HS, feeling left out of cliques or the "popular crowd", etc., but enough years combined with life experiences have wiped all that away and we are coming together as people eager and excited to rediscover each other and to pick up where we left off.  We are forging new friendships instead of going back and reminiscing about the past.  There are minireunions and dinners and lunches taking place all over the country now with people who hadn't seen each other for almost 50 years and who for the most part hadn't even known each other back then.  We are also assiduously working on putting together an official 50th reunion.  L.A. had a get together on Sunday (while my car was being wrecked - how rude), I am helping to plan one up here, and Florida is having one in November.

My last 3 nights were spent in a loft in Soho.  I was in 7th heaven.  I've never stayed in that area of the city.  I spent 3 solid days wandering around Soho, Little Italy, Chinatown - as much as my legs would permit me anyway.  It was glorious.

I returned home Friday June 24th to find a vase of flowers on the stairs with a note Welcome Home from Carla.  This really is my home now and I love it.  I received the results of the two MRIs I'd had done before I left (brain and spine) and have an appointment this Thursday to go over them with my doctor.  I'll wait until after that to say anything about them.  Everyone keeps asking about my new business.  Well, I should have my new business card soon, which I will post - it's at the printer's being printed as we speak - and I already have several clients lined up.  My official last day at work is end of October so I know I have to hustle to get this business up and running and supporting me.

Well, that's enough news for now.  To be continued - can the not-so-poor orphan girl from a small affluent town on the fashionable North Shore of Long Island find health, wealth, love and happiness in the City By The Bay?

Tales of MY City

I know I haven't posted for a long time and I also know you want to hear about my trip to New York (fabulous, in one word) and I promise I will write another post talking about that and the results of the latest MRIs and what is happening with the new business and the latest culinary creations by Carla and Liza, but right now I want to talk about the world premiere of the musical Tales of the City which I saw today with Trish.

Yes, it's that Tales of the City, based on the serial which appeared in the San Francisco Chronicle starting May 1976, which then later became a series of 6 books and then finally a miniseries on PBS starring Laura Linney and Olympia Dukakis.   The musical is wonderful.  It's funny and evocative and charming and emotional and clever and extremely entertaining.  The entire cast is excellent, as are the sets, design, choreography, costumes, etc.

But what I really want to talk about is how I related to it and how it affected me.  I arrived in San Francisco in the Fall of 1973, from Europe by way of a 3 week road trip across the USA.  I stayed with my sister Trish at first, as I fully intended to only be here a month or so, after which I would travel up to Canada and then take the train across Canada to eventually arrive in Finland to visit my good friend Ulla who is Finnish but whom I had met in Munich, and then resettle in Paris.

Except that I fell in love with San Francisco.  It seemed to combine all the qualities of my 3 favorite cities: the culture of New York, the cosmopolitanism and sophistication of Paris, and the beauty and joy of Rio de Janeiro which is also situated between a Bay and an Ocean.  I eventually found my own apartment (a studio in Noe Valley) and a job (financial analyst for Fibreboard Corporation).

I don't remember very much about the next 3 years.  The only friends I made also worked at Fibreboard. I hated working for a corporation and I had little in common with the people I met there.  Then one day I met Michel, a Frenchman living in SF.  We became friends and I started doing some work for him on the side.  I loved it and I loved being able to speak French again.  Then Michel moved to Houston, TX to start an import/export company and when he called me to come to Texas and work with him, I jumped at the chance.  Anything to get out of that corporate world.  So I packed up my little green VW bug and drove to Texas.   I lasted 4 months (March through June 1976) after which I gave up on the heat and the mentality and the FOOD (oy) and called my good friend Roger Pearson to fly out and help me drive my two cars back to SF (I'd gotten a good deal on a used Mercedes but still had the bug).

You're probably wondering why I'm writing about all this.  There's a reason.  The day we arrived back n SF a week later is the day my life here really began.  After dropping off my cars at my studio, we went to the bar The Bus Stop on Union Street for a drink and I met Kate Earl, who instantly became one of my closest friends and who still is (even though ironically enough she is now living in Texas).  On the way out, we bumped into friends of Roger's, Ruthie and Bob Shaps, who also became close friends.  Later that week I walked into a cheese shop in Tiburon and picked up a brochure on a cooking class.  I called the teacher that night who was Larry Negri, originally from Rhode Island, and we ended up talking for 3 hours.  I not only ended up taking every class he taught, he also became my friend, my older brother, my mentor, my playmate.  Kate took the classes with me and there we met Dan Cane (and by extension his partner Dick) and Lillian Wendroff (and later her husband Alan who ended up being the one who caused me to meet Elson but we'll forgive him for that).  The 7 of us - Larry, Kate, Dick and Dan, Lillian and Alan and myself - became a village.  We were constantly together.  Kate and I were basically inseparable - some people where she worked even thought we were a couple - and people still remember the parties we used to give.  I still tell people about the New Year's Eve we all spent at Dick and Dan's.  Everyone contributed something and Dick's contribution was a tin of Beluga caviar.  He was so disgusted when we wolfed it down in less than 15 minutes - it had cost him $500!  What a lot of fun memories from that period.

But life continued to get better and richer.  Within a couple of weeks of meeting Kate and then Larry, I met Richard and Rick through my cousin who was visiting from L.A.  Jeff was an actor at that time and was staying with Rick who was also an actor at that time.  Richard and Rick are still good friends to this day, even though they are no longer together - Richard living in Florida and Rick in France with Eric (and yes, Rick, Carla and I are still planning to come visit - I just don't know when yet).

And finally, I got to meet everyone who worked with Kate at Romano Wine Imports since I worked with her at all the wine tastings and thus I met Michael and Francine Filice, who are part of My Village and still extremely close friends.

All this happened in the Fall of 1976, right when Tales of The City was being serialized in the Chronicle.  We all read it religiously.  After all, it was our life being depicted - although instead of being into drugs, we were into food and wine - and we still are.  All these memories came flooding back as I watched this play.  The feeling of being part of a family (Richard used to always say you can't choose your family but you can choose your friends).  The joy, the abandonment, the total non-judgment.  Every day was an adventure and every night we were on the phone with each other.

The first act consisted of recreating this era and introducing the characters.  It reminded me of a Neil Simon or Woody Allen play with one liners being thrust right and left and you could tell which of us in the audience had been around at that time.

The second act was a bit heavier and more emotional.  One of the main characters, Michael "Mouse" Tolliver, had not told his parents he was gay and he finally wrote a letter to his mother (which he sang) in which he told her in a very loving way.  Anna Madrigal had the secret of being a transgender.  One by one all these secrets came out and by the end of the play everyone was accepting of everyone.  My sister and I were both sniffling and choking back tears several times.  One of the things I adore about this city is the lack of judgment and the acceptance of all kinds.

But mainly I was reminded of the first village I had when I came back to SF in 1976 and the village I have now, which includes some of the original members - Kate, Francine.  I have been so lucky to always have been surrounded by loving and supportive friends.  That is what Tales of the City is all about.  And that is why I consider them to be Tales of MY City.

Another Year Older - Another Year Wiser?

It's been a year since I turned 65 and joined Medicare.  There have been a lot of changes in my life since August 8, 2008 when I moved into the Carriage House, but my birthday this year and the people I celebrated it with really brought home to me how much my life has changed and how happy I am with it.  Just about all the people I celebrated with I did not know before that momentous date.  Donna, whom I met last year in Physical Therapy for MS at Stanford and who has become a good friend, and I spent a delightful afternoon at Stanford Shopping Center having lunch and browsing on the day of my birthday - her birthday is two days after mine.  That evening there was a small get together with several of the women from the cancer class Carla and I took at the YMCA two years ago.  The idea was just to get together but they had a surprise for me and had a birthday cake, candles and presents.  That was Thursday.  I also received two separate beautiful bouquets of flowers, one from Brenda and the other from another new friend.  Then on Sunday evening Carla, Judith and Liza threw me another birthday party.  This was very special to me because these three women have become very important to me and make up a large part of my new life.  It was perfect - we had drinks, dinner, watched movies and Carla, of course, made another one of her fabulous creations for dessert.  In a week I'm having dinner with my new friend Ge who is also a Pisces and so we will celebrate both our birthdays together.  I finally feel settled in my new life.  Jane Fonda wrote a book when she turned 60 and she talked about the three separate lives she has led.  I feel the same way - my childhood and college and the years in Paris and then San Francisco as a single woman, my married life as a wife, mother and grandmother, and now this new life which is a combination of the previous two as well as being entirely new with entirely new challenges, surprises, and adventures.  I might be 66 but I feel young and as though my life is really just beginning.

A lot has happened since my last posting.  I did not go to New York in February as I'd originally planned.  Everyone here was very concerned about how I would do in freezing weather there, fearing I might slip and fall, but it was only when my friends in New York, whom I was planning to visit, urged me to wait until the Spring that I reluctantly acquiesced and canceled my flights.  I was feeling a little bummed about it and was talking to Brenda on the phone when she suddenly suggested I come to Seattle instead.  And so I did.  And I had a fantastic time, as I always do when I am with Brenda.  The weather even cooperated - it didn't rain until Monday Feb 14th, the day I flew home, and it was moderate enough that I didn't even wear my heavy jacket.  We spent time with her Brazilian friends whom I adore, I met Cameron's girlfriend (they're adorable together), we drove up to Leavenworth for the day (no, not the prison, it's a 3 hour drive up into the mountains and is a replication of a German or Swiss town - we had dark beer and sausage), we went to the taping of a morning talk show with Brenda's friend Karmen and received free couple's snuggies (see photos).  It was really great.  But the best part in a sense is that I saw Elson and it was almost like old times.  I'd called him and told him I was coming and he was very excited and wanted to make sure he saw me.  On Sunday Brenda dropped me off at Charlton's and then we went to pick up Elson and went to Chinatown for Dim Sum with the boys and Cameron's girlfriend Lauren.  We had a great time, laughing and kidding around just like we used to.  Afterwards I went to Elson's apartment with him and I showed him how to use iTunes and his computer.  I stayed there a couple of hours and then he brought me back to Brenda's.  This is what I wanted for us - to remain on a friendly level so we can all still get together as a family.  In a way, I'm glad Wayne and Arlene have cut me off, because I'm sure they would have been furious about this and given me a hard time.  Arlene hadn't even wanted me to take his phone calls when he was in prison.  That would have been too cruel.  Elson and Charlton even called and sang Happy Birthday to me on my birthday.

I have started taking classes of the Alexander Technique, once every two weeks.  I really feel it is helping me.  I don't know yet whether Medicare will cover it - I have to file a claim.  The MS seems to be getting worse.  I started to straighten up my apartment today since Carla and Judith were coming for dinner and it totally exhausted me and I had to crash on my couch.  And my apartment isn't that big - I hadn't even made the bed.  But I am wearing the brace more often and that definitely helps.  I brought it to Seattle with me and it made all the difference.  Speaking of Seattle and flights, I hadn't flown anywhere for 4 years and I was really hesitant, knowing I wouldn't be able to walk all the way to the gates, do all that standing, etc.  So I reserved wheelchairs at the airports and it was terrific!  I felt like royalty - they whizzed me through security, I got to pre-board, they waited for and retrieved my luggage for me and then accompanied me to the curb, etc.  So no more fear of flying!  I am good to go.

And speaking of my couch, the most exciting news is that I got a Macbook.  I got it used on Craigs List and boy am I loving it.  I don't have to go to my office anymore to do emails.  In fact I'm on the couch right now writing my blog.  I even at times write and read emails in bed.  And in the bathroom (sorry - too much information?).  At the dining room table.  And when Spring comes, on the deck.  Oh life is grand, it's very wonderful....sorry, I digressed into Once Upon A Mattress.  But speaking of the macbook, this leads me to the next piece of news.

I am very serious about starting my own computer consulting business for senior citizens.  There is an entire generation of baby boomers and older who have been given iPods and iPads or have macbooks or netbooks and who don't know how to use them.  I'm always helping friends learn how to use iTunes and digital photos and so why not get paid for it.  A friend who is a graphic artist is going to help me design a business card which I will put up at Senior Centers, Assisted Living places, etc.  I'm starting to phase myself out of my job in Milpitas or at least cut back my hours.  The drive is beginning to get to me and I'm exhausted when I get home.  I'm also thinking I can do freelance bookkeeping locally.  No one knows what the future holds for me regarding my mobility so I need to do this now rather than later.  I don't want to suddenly not be able to do the drive anymore while I'm still working 3 days a week and they're dependent on me.

While I was in Seattle a new photo was taken of me with an apple martini, so I've replaced the one on this site.  Speaking of apple martinis (how's that for a segue?), JoAnne Rockower called me last night.  She now lives in Puerto Vallarta and she was having dinner last night with some friends who also have condos in her building and she suddenly recognized one of the couples - Marv and Chie Rubinstein, good friends of mine from New York!  What a small world.  Marv will be celebrating his 90th birthday next year in PV, so I will stay with JoAnne when I fly down for it.  Maybe Brenda will come with me!  JoAnne's been inviting us to come stay for some time now.  I missed Marv's 85th at the Awahnee in Yosemite, but I was there for his 80th in Paris.  He gives the best parties.

Well, I think that's enough good news for now.  It's a banner year for me as my old friend Bruce Pacht pointed out - lots of double digits - 66 33 11.  Double digits for double the fun.  I'll drink to that!

A Wonderful Life, continued

Life just keeps getting better and better.  You'd think I'd run out of news, but I don't.  Every day seems to bring new adventures, fun times, challenges, surprises, delights, unexpected turns in the road.  Where do I start?

I'll start with the Alexander Technique.  Dana, the teacher I found, gave a presentation at our monthly MS lecture at Stanford this past Wednesday.  She hadn't seen me since my initial half hour appointment in October and she was thrilled at the difference - in my posture, bearing and walking ability.  I still have not used the cane since mid November.  That doesn't mean there aren't some days when my right leg drags or my two legs are stiff and heavy.  But I still manage without the cane.  I had become dependent on it, and I didn't like that.  I do still bring it with me, just in case, but it's been folded up in its pouch for over two months now.  My MS doctor is going to write me a prescription for the series of 24 classes of the technique and hopefully Medicare will cover it.  There has already been such a difference without my having even taken one full class!  Dana said she thinks I picked it up so easily because I am so open to it.

I've had another day at a museum - this time the Post Impressionist exhibit at the de Young Museum in San Francisco.  Carla and I drove into San Francisco to Andy Jacoby's house (one of my roommates from Cornell and a partner in crime from my first trip ever to Europe, summer of '65 - we first saw the Impressionists together at the Jeu de Paume museum in Paris that summer) for a delicious lunch lovingly prepared by her master chef husband Robert, and then the 4 of us went to the museum.  There were 4 cardboard cutouts leading up the museum where you could stick your head through it for a Kodak instant photo op - I chose the one by Renoir, as you can see at the left.  I wore my brace and I did have the cane with me for this occasion - I'm optimistic and positive, but not stupid.  I wouldn't have made it through the exhibit without it.  It was wonderful.  Afterwards Carla and I went over to Michael and Francine's house for wine and cheese and a tour of their beautiful house for Carla.  What was intended to be a brief visit turned into over 3 hours!  It was a great end to a wonderful day.

I'm on a roll with contacting old friends on Facebook.  Some of you will recognize the name Andy Vlady.  We met when I was 14 and he was 16 in Great Neck and he's been in and out of my life ever since.  It's because of him that I ended up going to Europe in the first place (he spent his junior year of college in Florence and came back with wondrous tales that filled my head and my heart), and also because of him that I went to Brazil (he introduced me to the Brazilian movie Black Orpheus back when we were in high school and I've been hooked on all things Brazilian ever since).  He also introduced me to jazz (in addition to being an artist, he was also a jazz drummer).  So he's played an important part in my life.  He was passing through San Francisco for Russian Christmas with his Russian cousins on his way to Greece where he was going to show his latest collection of lithographs and we got together for lunch on January 6th.  We hadn't seen each other since 1988, but we just picked up where we'd left off and talked nonstop for 5 hours until he had to return to his hotel to get ready for that evening's festivities.  It was wonderful.  As always, he regaled me with fascinating and wondrous tales.

I also found one of my closest friends from junior and senior high school, Judy Evans, although not on Facebook.  Since Lyn Lederman had first discovered me and put me in touch with all these other classmates from Great Neck, I'd been wanting to find Judy.  But she wasn't on Facebook.  I tried all the search engines I could think of, but to no avail, since I didn't know her married name.  However, miracle of miracles, I found a letter I'd received from her in 1989 with her married name, and then easily found her in Texas.  We've been emailing each other regularly ever since and hope to actually see each other one of these days.  I used to go over to her house after school and have fond memories of her parents and brother, and she knew my family, too.  Other than my relatives, there aren't very many people in my life who knew my parents, so this is especially important to me.  When I happened to mention my father's second wife, she hooted "Oh THAT woman!"  I loved it.

And finally, one night when I couldn't sleep, I did a search for Paul Jaqua and easily found him on Facebook.  We'd originally met in 1972 when I was living in Munich and he was part of a group of Californians tooling around Europe.  We stayed in touch here in California when we both settled here, but I'd lost touch with him and hadn't spoken to him since the late 1990s.  I emailed him and we spoke on the phone for 2 hours the next day.  The amazing part is that he lives very close to my sister and Stan, so we will definitely be getting together soon.

There was another potluck lunch with my chronic illness support group up in the Redwoods.  What a special group of people.  Brian again played the bagpipes, Rob played the violin, and Marlene read one of her poems.  I felt like I was part of a salon in Paris.  I liked Marlene's poem so much that I asked her to email it to me.  She sent me the link to a YouTube slide show with music that she'd created for this and 9 other of her poems.  She has Parkinson's and her passion is skiing - which she still manages to do - and her poem is entitled Unbound Rapture.  She gave me permission to post the link here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8DYTf8asHhU  I highly recommend that you take a look.  It's filled with hope and beauty.

Liza gave me a birdfeeder for Christmas along with a huge sack of birdfeed.  I've never had one before.  She came over and hung it on my deck so I could see it from my bed.  At first there was no activity, but then suddenly one day there were 4 birds at once, each one at a different opening, plus several squirrels on the deck scooping up the seed that fell.  It's now two weeks later and I've already had to refill the feeder.  I love lying in bed watching them fly to and fro, chirping happily as they munch away.

I had a dream about Wayne and Arlene last night, but it was a good dream.  I dreamt that I ran into them somewhere and they were as friendly and warm as they used to be.  I don't remember the details, but I remember the good feeling I had when I woke up.  I've thought about it since then, and I think the meaning of the dream is that I'm finally ready to let go of the anger and the hurt that I've felt concerning them and to move on.  Whenever I've been at the movies downtown or at Trader Joe's or anywhere public around here where I might run into them, I've worried what I might do or say, and whether they would just ignore me and move away.  I'm not worried about it anymore.  I only wish them the best and I choose just to concentrate on the good memories I have of them and all the wonderful things they did for me during that terrible time.

And finally, I have rejoined the world of Macdom!  I am so excited.  I found a used Macbook on Craigslist that is practically brand new.  Now that I'm no longer a mortgage broker and thus no longer in need of real estate software, I can go back to my first love - the Mac.  My Dell PC is over 7 years old and on its last legs, so it was time to start looking for a new computer and thus the perfect time to make the switch.  I already have an iPod and an iPhone so I may as well make the family complete.  I need to become proficient on the Mac anyway, since I've decided one of my new professions will be as a professional consultant helping people with their computers, specifically iTunes and music.  I'm very good at it, most probably because it involves one of my passions - music - so why not make money at it.  I spent 3 hours today helping my friend Judith and she agreed that I should pursue this.  I'm going to get some business cards made up and she will help me pass them out.  She's a professional and has many contacts.  There's a whole community of people around my age who are just beginning to use iPads, iPhones, iPods and iTunes and they have never used a computer before except for emails.  I still plan to also do freelance bookkeeping.  I am in the process of brushing up my resume and will start looking in earnest once I return from New York.

Speaking of New York, this trip is fast approaching!  I leave on February 10th and return on the 25th.  I have been shopping for thermal underwear, plastic boots, hand and foot warmers in preparation for the cold and snow.  Vickie at work even gave me a muff and is going to lend me her ultra warm coat (I didn't keep very much of my winter clothing, never dreaming I would ever go to New York in the winter).  Little did I know.

Well, I think that's enough news for now.  I will post again once I return from New York.  This is my first big trip since my trip to Florida and Texas in April 2008.  I'm very excited, in case you couldn't tell.  Land of bagels and lox, here I come!